i was, for the nth time so on the verge of freaking out. i am just so tired and i feel so stressed. it's not even legal in some states for me to work and i have job stress! good luck with that.i just hope i do start realizing and actually wake up knowing when spontaneity ends and responsibility begins....
Dec 28, 2006
Dec 18, 2006
I just finished reading some of the blogs i managed to tag with mine because they were uber nice. And i cant quite try to fill my page with words because i know i wouldn't be able to write half as good as what they have. I write simply because. On the other hand, they write because. These people have got something to say, a lot to say and they can say it outright outloud without having all those ideas...
Dec 4, 2006
to mumble
out of the sample servings of fantasiesi live our bittersweet realities...a touch of magic inspired,a flick of kisses and enchanting demandscat fights and bull sessions we have in store,panic-stricken and some *** galore.id never change whats meant to bewe'd forever be the daintest quainteststars in this starland of tranquility.sigh. i love you a million starfish.and a million pink m&m's.and a...
Nov 29, 2006
conversations of a gay lizard rat and an autistic psycho humanoid freak: chapter 1
topic - mainstream writers(in between talks of writers known, writers unwritten, writers:us)autistic psycho humanoid freak: you know why a lot of people wants to be a writer nowadays?gay lizard rat: why?aphf: COOL.glr: that four-letter word.aphf: yep.glr: uh huh. they've sensationalized writers.aphf: most writers nowadays aren't just writers. they're fashion icons, as well as tv hosts, celebrities...
Nov 26, 2006
innocence
i love the crossfires at the end of a fighti love seeing them all cuddled up so tight.i love the wind blowing through their mud-stricken facesi love their gasping for the air in between the spaces.look into those hazelnut eyesand melt with the dim glow.i try to...
Nov 25, 2006
coversations of a gay lizard-rat and a humaniod: the prologue
humanoid: its weird. what's weird? weird is ok. abnormal is not.gay lizard-rat: abnormal is ok. it's the society that bugs all off.h: welcome the anti-social. ... there should never be such a term.glr: what term?h: anti-social.grl: yep, i guess. i mean, an anti-social has her (or his) set of circle.h: right. they've got their own society of anti-socials, them being termed as such by those part of...
Nov 21, 2006
sigh. whine.
ok. so i was making this testimonial for matt and im stuck. i said id try to put into words how much he means to me and its taking me such a long time staring at the computer screen typing nothing. (when we say put into words, it means id have to write him a poem or any lyrical something) and i now believe that i do suck at this. whatever happened?!sigh. oh my. now i am again starting my paragraphs...
Oct 3, 2006
lazy cheerers, firm believers
brief updates:1. ok. so i know i just had my template changed but i am planning to have it changed once again. call me a discontented frustrated blog-minder, i just have to look for the perfect template to actually have a bit more enthusiasm in wanting to open my blog and write. because when i see my blog so bland, i feel like i am not having my share with the template. i just want a template that...
Sep 25, 2006
ok so anyways, i just finished changing my template and im supposed to bless it with a new post (something worth reading, that is) but i really have to go because i still need to take a rest before my shift starts at 3am and my baby mattie is already so tired i have to have him home at least before 7.30.time check: 7.10. oh my. i really have to let this go.(btw, i have to check this skin still, because...
Aug 13, 2006
im tired. and im sick.
jgkaslfikasdbfuiegjksdkf;sdgauigefjbisdugisagewfhdjksdfhsdukfgusfjkldgjoiewj1. sigh.it was a long weekend for us guys at work but i really feel i haven't gotten much rest lately. you see, even when i do know i'm not supposed to go to work the next day, when i sleep at night i still wake up at around 12.30 and when i get back to sleep i end up waking again by 4am. great, right? then i'm up by 6. i'm...
Jul 12, 2006
im sick
im so super tired. im sick and i still have work in about an hour and 15mins. yay!this is too hard. i don't ever want to have such sickness ever again. i woke up yesterday feeling so bad and i was only able to get up of my bed just to call matt and tell him im sick and ask him to call the hr. yes, i went to work half day yesterday. and when i got to work, i felt a bit better almost after shift but...
Jul 6, 2006
all i'd need is black
bg: oo - up dharma down*i just love listening to her voice. ang lamig sobra. it gives me the creeps. in a good way, though.i already started going to school just last Monday afternoon and it actually feels good to be back within those four walls of...uhh...education? haha. and i actually like my professors this time. even if it's this 3hours subject and it gets a bit boring with all the paperworks...
Jun 29, 2006
"i could fall asleep in those eyes like a water bed"
i am on the verge of tears just browsing through all our pictures and realizing how much i really miss holding you close. there's no other word for it. i miss you. i miss you so much it's already killing me. but i have to do this. we have to be strong for us. i know we'd get through. it's just that, i miss you.everytime we are not together i just think of you and when im with you im just wishing for...
Jun 24, 2006
sorry had to cut this post short. i still need sleep.
now i really have serious belief that there is something wrong with my template. the big picture on top of it all (i mean, the one on the top..damn) does not pop out. grr. and i was loving this template already. hmm... maybe its time for me to change things up. thanks for the maker of this template. it was good until it lasted. i loved the green so much. :)anyways, i was just browsing through blogskins...
Jun 9, 2006
sing with the clown's cry
its not enough to be you anymore.many times in my sleep i dreamthe weirdest braided dream i ever could be inthe tangle of arms and the shadow of the lightsthe glow of the red nightclinging softly yet it never fades.i never asked fo rthe starsi never asked for the nighti never asked for the sparksi never...
May 31, 2006
realidaya
i want to cry. and not because of some sappy thing like im tired of this life, im so burned out, my boyfriend cheated on me (as if that will ever happen!)..no. i want to cry because i miss TABAK.i was browsing through a friend's page in friendster and i saw it...tabak pics. old tabak pics...sigh.i miss tabak's principle. i miss tabak's comfort-the thing is, no matter what happens, you know tabak is...
May 28, 2006
grabbed from a friend's post
[-] You know someone that cares about you.[-] You have a boyfriend/ girlfriend/fiancee/husband/ wife.[ ] You have your own room.[-] You own a cell phone.[-] You get good grades.[ ] You have an ipod/ mp3 player.[-] Your parents are still married.[-] You have more than 2 best friends.[ ] There is a swimming pool in your backyard.[-] You live in a house.T O T A L: 7[-] You dress how you want to.[-] You...
May 22, 2006
submission
feel the warmth a new day bringsand cry me outto yoursleepless dreamstouch me in any waylong for meand make me waitshimmer in the darknesstinker with the lightplay with firedance with the nig...
don't just read, write!
i still remember when i was small (i mean im still small now but you get the point), i used to be so "kind" to my books. id always have my dad cover them up neatly with those clear plastic covers that we use to cover our school books with. i was very particular with my books - they had to be completely covered, the tag price had to be torn off and my dad should use the cleanest looking clearest plastic...
May 19, 2006
unholy hours, incapabilities, the present, the written word, the arts and what-have-yous
i just read the blog of a friend of mine and im turning a wee crazy. i mean, she might not be living the life she really wants yet she's living the life i want. studying, writing, watching movies, writing still, and writing again. basically its all her free time of writing that making me like this. it doesn't help that my call center shift starts at an unholy hour and ends for me to meet the glorious...
May 16, 2006
books to movies
its one o'clock in the morning and im getting a wee tired. matt is beside me right now, ever so naughty and kulet all of a sudden. but i miss that part about him. hehe.so there we were supposed to play dota but as it turns out, we had lots of otehr stuff to check out and do before playing.anyway, i can't wait to see The Da Vinci Code already. im super excited with the way it'll turn out. i mean, i...
May 15, 2006
how did you...?
its weird when you answer stuff at blogthings and then they make you realize who you really are. its creepy but fun at the same ti...
me
People Envy Your CompassionYou have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain.People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.What Do People Envy About...
yadnom
again, im super hungry. sigh.im to go to the ateneo again today to teach my kids. hope they do get to elarn something from me.i can't wait to go to work already. i don't know, im just hung up on it. i have no plans of leaving it. really. il go to work in the mornings and go to school in the afternoons. right? i could make this work. i know i can.***sigh. i feel like no words are able to come out of...
May 14, 2006
i just got back from work a bit earlier and well, i wasn't actually working...i mean, i got there so late because my dad, my parents actually, were forcing me to resign. but i have to get through them.btw, a BIG thank you to my boss..haha..love you!so there. iw as with kuya jigz and ate joan after work and we went to megamall and st. francis square. kuya jigz and i were supposed to buy slippers but...
May 8, 2006
we just came from the ateneo and i already met my new kids. (haha. new kids. as if!) anyways, their names are len, denden and arvin. i got a guy and he was like the most shy there is. it was hard for me to make him say anything. heck, it was hard for anyone to make him say anything.but anyhows, i miss teaching. im glad i still got this decla tutor slot. so glad. :)***i don't want to write anthing...
May 3, 2006
Ten Commandments for Peace of Mind
- unknown author -1. Do Not Interfere In Others' Business Unless AskedMost of us create our own problems by interferingtoo often in others' affairs. We do so becausesomehow we have convinced ourselves that our wayis the best way, our logic is the perfect logicand those who do not conform to our thinking mustbe criticized and steered to the right direction,our direction. This thinking denies the existenceof...
Apr 23, 2006
eee
You Belong in LondonA little old fashioned, and a little modern. A little traditional, and a little bit punk rock.A unique woman like you needs a city that offers everything.No wonder you and London will get along so well.What City Do You Belong In?Start Hunting For That New ApartmentYou two are ready...
ours
You Should Be With a Water Sign!Your best match is a Cancer, Scorpio, or PiscesWhy? You crave intimacy and connection in your relationshipAnd while most guys can't open up enough for you, a Water Sign canNot that you're whole relationship will be soul gazingA Water Sign matches your goofy sense of humor...
me
You Are a Natural Beauty!You're the kind of beauty that every guy dreams about...One that looks good in the morning - without a stich of makeupThat's doesn't mean you're a total hippie chic thoughYou have style, but for you, style is effortlessWhat Type of Beauty Are You?Your Scent is MangoSultry, sweet,...
Apr 21, 2006
mattie's
haha...earth!Your Love Element Is EarthIn love, you have consistency and integrity.For you, love is all about staying grounded and centered.You attract others with your zest for life and experiences.Your flirting style is defined by setting the scene, creating a unique moment in time.Steady progress...
How You Life Your LifeYou seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly.You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.How...
galing kay ate hanna
You Should Be A PoetYou craft words well, in creative and unexpected ways.And you have a great talent for evoking beautiful imagery...Or describing the most intense heartbreak ever.You're already naturally a poet, even if you've never written a poem.What Type of Writer Should You Be?Your Hair Should...
Apr 17, 2006
liar liar to such joy!
ok. i just lied and told my parents i had work today but then i had none. so there.***i wanted so much to write all the poems (well, the lines) suddenly rushing out of my whole system but then the computer where i was in front of had a lousy keypad that might make my mattie wake up with its loud loud clink,clank. oh by the way he was actually sleeping at my lap that time. so anyway all those poems...
Mar 23, 2006
don't steal our sun
*some lines from 'don't steal our sun' by the thri...
Mar 20, 2006
orange!yay!
Your true color is Orange! What's Your True Color? Brought to you by TickleYou're a bold, confident orange. A warm, powerful color that indicates a strong, welcoming personality, orange is the mark of people who are social and extroverted by nature. Vibrant, with an upbeat attitude,...
Mar 17, 2006
a muse. bow.
You're a Muse!What's Your Goddess Identity?Brought to you by TickleLoreen, you're a Muse!Known for your creative powers, you Muses are the poets and musicians of life, the patrons of the fine arts. It's funny, though — even with your inspirational prowess, you're probably not the type to boast about...
bitching
okay. i just realized that the bitching part one i did didn't reach the "your blog published successfully" status. great.okay, i guess my rant there was about the people in our filipino class who just cannot make a research paper by themselves within one week. like duh?! it isn't a thesis. plus, what kind of educated person who was able to almost finish a year in college cannot possible make a research...
bitching part two
don't you just hate it when you're working on your blog and you're in an internet cafe and people are standing at your back, absent-mindedly reading what you're writing?! i mean, yes okay this is going to be posted on my blog for everyone to see..but hey, i don't want people reading what im writing BEFORE i finish it. i guess the only person i ever let reading my unfinished works is a. and imagine,...
Mar 16, 2006
whatever thingies
9 lasts.1. cigarette: first sem of 052. beverage: water3. kiss: 2 seconds ago4. hug: a5. movie seen: y tu6. cd played: matalarana cd7. song listened to: a singing "may cornbits na maliit..."8. bubble bath: was9. time you cried: yesterday afternoon8 have you evers1. dated one of your best friends: huh?2. skinny dipped: ...3. kissed somebody and regretted it: i can't remember this..4. fallen in love:...
Mar 15, 2006
mediatrix
i saw the above term in a fx taxi. i don't know if it's just a make-up name for the taxi or the owner really thought hard about proclaiming how the media tricks us for the most part; nonetheless, it's aptly named.mediatrixmedia really does plays tricks on us. be it from the most mundane thing to the most critically profound. i have nothing against media being a way of expression of repression, current...
mediatrix
i saw the above term in a fx taxi. i don't know if it's just a make-up name for the taxi or the owner really thought hard about proclaiming how the media tricks us for the most part; nonetheless, it's aptly named.mediatrixmedia really does plays tricks on us. be it from the most mundane thing to the most critically profound. i have nothing against media being a way of expression of repression, current...
Mar 14, 2006
cram...agrmm
ok. im not supposed to do anything besides my book review today but i can't help it. im getting tired with all the words, so i decided to change my blog's template and im proud with thi. im loving bright colors now and green is just shouting out loud!anyways, just wanted to post somethng and this is it. i have to get back to finishing my book review, which, by the wa,y, was due Tuesday of last week....
Mar 6, 2006
for you, baby a
ill be leaving for baguio in a few hours...without a.***a and i played dota just a while ago and i can't help but notice how i am going to miss him terribly. you see, even if it's just going to take me hours to go to and from baguio, it's really not the same without him. im already missing him...even if he's just iches away from me.i actually can't stop hugging him on the way home. i am going to MISS...
Mar 3, 2006
baguio
im excited. im ecstatic. im going back to baguio! well, im staying there not as long as i want to but just as long as i finish all whatevers i have to do. or else, it may be bye-bye to everything and everyone for me as im to egt stuck in our house for the rest of my life if i mess it up.anyway, i WANT to go to BAGUIO!!! im really excited. imagine, kung cnbe ko n kay dadi maaga pa lang n kelangan ko...
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