Aug 21, 2014

On flying

My birthday is coming up next month (in 39 days) and I have this itch to just pack up and go out of the country for just a day. Literally. I'd leave on the 29th and be back for a quick birthday dinner on the 30th. Simple, right?

I have a lot of places on my list but I have a feeling I could do Singapore or Tokyo by myself. I would love to visit all the bookstores and art shops there and just basically walk everywhere. I need to check though if I can be able to pick something up other than photographs from each place because hello sad empty crying wallet but I guess postcards will be enough to keep me sane/sated.

While there's certainly too many things to do for the day (get done with this interview, finish the textbook, create a social media calendar for the pride march, meet and plan the next issue of FEIST, schedule tweets for the weekend for work, smoke, drink with friends later, oh and I forgot EAT omg I keep forgetting I have to feed myself), I can't stop myself from daydreaming about a solo getaway.

I wonder what I'll be writing about by then. 

Aug 17, 2014

Dear you

This is the day I will forget about you.

I defended your fucking ass for 16 years. When you told me you wanted to tear the family apart, i supported you. I was 10 years old then.

You were the first one who had an affair and kept at it. I never told anyone all the things you told me. I never spilled the beans no matter how many text messages, photos, and letters I've read and seen.

I constantly took your side in every argument. I no-questions-asked put you on a friggin fucking pedestal.

Not anymore.

After all this time, you still don't believe in me. After all this time, you still don't believe in what I tell you I can do.

I have been proving people wrong for the longest time. And if you still don't believe I can best life without that fucking piece of paper, then go ahead.

I don't need people in my life pulling me down. Mediocrity is a word I never want associated with me. And you're exactly that.

As far as I'm concerned, I don't have a father anymore.

Aug 5, 2014

New Layout

After 10 years, I finally breathe a new look to this blog. Let's see if we can sprinkle some words in too, eh?