Aug 31, 2005

Your Hidden Talent
You are both very knowledgeable and creative.
You tend to be full of new ideas and potential - big potential.
Ideas like yours could change the world, if you build them.
As long as you don't stop working on your dreams, you'll get there.

You Are a Strawberry Daiquiri

You're a fun, playful drinker who loves to party.
You may get totally wasted, but you're always a happy drunk!
What Mixed Drink Are You?

mahal, strawberry...ur fave. *wink*

Your Birthdate: September 30

Your birthday on the 30th day of the month shows individual self-expression is necessary for your happiness.

You tend to have a good way of expressing yourself with words, certainly in a manner that is clear and understandable.

You have a good chance of success in fields requiring skill with words.

You can be very dramatic in your presentation and you may be a good actor or a natural mimic.

You have a vivid imagination that can assist you in becoming a good writer or story-teller.

Strong in your opinions, you always tend to think you are on the right side of an issue.

There may be a tendency to scatter your energies and have a lot of loose ends in your work.

You may have significant artistic talent and be very creative.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

just got this from te hannah's blog. cute.

Aug 30, 2005


wouldn't it be nice if we were lying
and there wasn't anyone around
(sung to the tune of wouldn't it be nice by drew b.)

haha!!!!! another one of those days we spend crumpling our already crumpled uniforms and thinking of absolutely absurd stuff that just makes us laugh out real loud (sa lrt pa partida...kahiya no?)...anyways...he just surprised me for like thrice today...first with the letter then with the lollipop then with the box of samba, fruitella and (of course!!) lollipop...i just could not help but smile and float my way up our MA101 classroom...that was the fifth floor, mind you guys...and i did not complain a was pure bliss.

...wait. not really.


don't you just hate it when everything seems so okay at the beginning but then just comes out worse in the end no matter how hard you try to control it? that is just what always happens at home.wait let me rephrase that: that is just what always happen at our house. i mean, i swear no matter what good thing comes our way, or her way, everything just ends sourly in the end.

it's overly frustrating and just downright tiring.


so thankful you're here
grateful for the love you give
appreciative of your mere presence.

this was part of the surprise letter he gave me earlier:

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again

*However far away, I will always love you
However long i stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again


Aug 28, 2005


don't know why i didn't come
-norah jones

yes. i got that song as a background music. sigh.

i feel as empty as a drum
don't know why i didn't come

insensitivity ticks me off. i know i should learn to be more patient. i know i should learn to be more understanding. but can anybody tell me how? i mean, it's so frustrating having to explain every damn thing! i mean, can't you be a bit more sensitive? it's hard pretending evrything's okay. it's hard wearing again this suffocating mask of smiley faces when i thought i could long last...get rid of it and just stuff it away in some trash bin full of garbage that sooner or later the garbage man's gonna come for it.

your casual goodbyes
by the chill in your embrace
the expression on your face that's shown me
baby you might have
some advice to give on how to be


staring blankly into space. drowning in a sea of faces. i want to be a swan that's full with grace. i want to own a dress full of lace. kim possible. pasta edible. ube crinkles. rainbow sprinkles. world on fire. cross a wire. change post. party host. birthday cake. beautiful snowflakes. terrible speakers. great singers. pitter-patter. shiver-shatter. raindrops gumdrops. dewberries frootees.

there will be no white flag above my head
i'm in love and always will be.

Aug 23, 2005

august 23 2005

i miss you. i long for the warmth that overwhelms me everytime you're near. i yearn for the feel of your arms wrapped around me, holding me tight, taking away all my fright.

i want you. i see you in evry person i meet. i hear your voice in every song that's sung. i feel your presence wherever i may be.

i need you. i am addicted to the highs and lows of living the rest of my life with you. i am filled with strength knowing i have your hand to hold. i have become a better person with you.

i love you.

"...spending my days with you is like living in a world of fancy...making love in a world with vivid often have i been there? but it really doesn't long as we're together."
Just Like A Splendid Love Song
-Orange and Lemons

we are officially together.

Aug 21, 2005

stars do love to arrange things

in contrast to previous posts....yay! bati na kame... :)

"xempre. hindi pwedeng mgtgal ung mga ganun" -him...after reading what ive typed..he at my back...wait...i actually am sitting on top of him... *grin grin grin*...tsk tsk... "what a fox" -his favorite line when i do stuff that arouses him..hahaha...juuuust kidding...

anyways...i just am so thankful that he's not mad at me and we're still here...2 days shy of our aug.23...hahaha...angkinin ko n ung date n un ha?? hehehe...

i love you so much...i am sorry for stuff ive done...and i am thankful you're still here with me...i love you.

oh i remembered! we just attended mass and during the communion rites, as we were walking down the center aisle, we thought of our wedding day...i just got so excited imagining how that would look like...coz i already know how i would feel - already drenched in tears just seeing him at the end of my walk, waiting for me...

sigh...*hugs him tight*

Aug 17, 2005


ang lamig ngayon
naiwan ko yung balabal ko.
iniwan ko yung balabal ko...
sana mahanap ko pa
sana walang kumuhang iba...
malaman niyang
kailangan ko siya...
ang dami ng sugat
dumidikit sa balat ko
yung apoy ng ulan.
tulungan niyo ko...
kailangan ko siya...
dapat kong kasama.
dapat kong yakap.


walking out is like the worst thing ever. especially when those things you've walked out on are the most special things life could ever give and that those are the things that never deserve any walking out from.

i hate myself. ha, so blatant. but how cani actually even try to conceal what i feel? sigh. i feel so bad.

it was my fault, i know. i did something wrong and after that, i got mad at you for getting mad at me for doing something wrong. i am so sorry. i really am. the problem is i don't know how i can say those words out loud now...when the person has gone.

i want to cry but i can't. oh what the heck, the tears are about to fall anyways.

please...i am so sorry...i never meant for things to turn out this way...i never meant to hurt anyone...especially you...i am sorry...i love you so much i hate myself for hurting you...sorry...

Aug 10, 2005


i am at gowee...hehe..ang aga ko noh?...i just had to get out of the house right after my dad...para naman kahet papano mabawasan ung time n nkkta ko ung nanay ko...

ok...i sounded like a really bad girl...but...basta...stuff around the's just so complicated...and it's not that i don't want to talk about it but it's just that there are lots of other stuff to actually ponder on...lots of other stuff to think about... least i can smile now...ive received an email..wait no..a message from a friend of mine in the states...i just feel glad about small stuff like makes me happy when i hear (or read) about other people's life...knowing i am not alone in this world...


i was thumbing through my old journals earlier and i figured...wait wait..this pc is starting to better sign off now before i lose any just continue this thing later...

Aug 4, 2005

damn that long-haired girl

pvt i officially sucks...nice. the attendants were not so attendant and the computer was pretty lousy...grrr...tito juuuuuuuunnnnnn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyways aun...nanggigigil ako sa majal you po...hai hai.

i really have no idea how to thank the entirety of heaven for having matt.i am so the luckiest person alive. (well maybe except for him...*wink*)

omg!!! he's like the most handsome guy there is. i just love it when he looks at me that!!!! aaarghh...omg!! it's this close to my being described as a hungover lovesick puppy. (wow...from a greeting card to a puppy...have you ever seen such transition?)

so there...aaaah!!!! especially for you! especially for you!... (though i liked the original version of the song...juris' will suffice)

i was about to get back into a bloodthirsty lifesucking creature from down under but thanks to the recover post feature of blogger i was able to get back to my sane self.

anyways...before this obsolete computer decides to shut down again (for the nth time actually), id better wrap this post up... i reread the post and i sounded like a schizophrenic moment i fell this a moment later i fell that...haha...schizo...yep...i am.

Aug 3, 2005

as was promised

ainaku...meron na akong nigagawa kgbe na post tpos s gitna ng isang napakahabang litanya ukol sa paboritong topic nmen ni ate dilaw eh nag-hang ang computer ng gowee...bad noh? i was saying (like 5 hours ago...wait, no, 14 hours...), it dawned on me that my posts has gone from "sighs...i feel tired...i am so down..." to "haha..ahihi...smoiles...matt this...matt that..." it is so's like i always turn into a big glob of jelly whenever im with him. i know what i mean?

this just must be can i possibly explain why i suddenly turned into a mushy Hallmark greeting card, when, for the longest time, i would have bet everything i own, everything i have to prove that there is no such thing as a non-platonic unconditional love between two persons (of the opposite sex or not) unrelated?

add to that...i seriously am almost always in the mood to cuddle...and not just anyone, mind you...loving just comes so easy for me now...haha...i am so in love...damn everything and everyone else who dare scrutinize "i"...loving is just pure bliss when it's a matt sandro jacob aquino you love. it is.

"Love is love's own reward."

Aug 1, 2005

can't hardly wait

-in a state of giddiness....*wicked grins*-tama bang mag-plaigarise ng title ng pelikulang teeny-bopper?

i feel as if im six again and i can't wait for another scoop of cookies and cream ice cream. haha. i have this really wicked plan of having my hair permed...well...permed AND coloured AND cut. i am just so excited. it's loike a boitday gift for moiself. boitday's a month...well 2's at the end of september!...from now...and i can't wait...i can't wait to surprise him with it! i can't wait to surprise myself with it! :)

btw, sorry for a seriously delayed update...haha...that was just redundant...hehe. anyways, matt and i have been going out for quite some time now...aargh...i wish it was another tuesday...tuesdays with matt...hmm...matt-ie tuesdays...hmm...soo bad... *grins wickedly*

sigh...i guess that's it for today...hope im able to "blog" some more before the actual ritual of my perming my hair... :)

-can't wait