i am tired. i slept at around 4 to 4.30 am this morning (owing to the insufferable need to stare mercilessly at the computer screen while it hypnotized me into a series of continuous clickity-click of my hands over the keyboard) and woke up, wait...i was shaken out of my couple of zzz's at what time? oh, 7.45 am. ack!
it's already 2.11 pm and actually, if i really want, i can go ahead and sleep...
Mar 23, 2005
isang libo't isang daan
Lors
4:10 AM
isang libo't isang daang pulang rosas
na
nagkalat sa tabi mo,
isang libo't isang daang ngiti
na hindi na
masisilayan pang muli.
isang libo't isang daang salita
para sa
kariktan ng karimlang ito,
isang libo't isang daang rosas na puti
ang
sasalubong sa
iyong pag-uwi.
**para sa bawat isa na hindi na muli pang masisilayan ang isang libo't isang daang patak ng luha na patuloy-tuloy angpagtulo mula...
tula
Lors
4:07 AM
mga puta.
sa ilalim
ng nagtitingkarang bituin
nakikisaliw sa himig
ng awitin ng mundo.
isang patlang
sa
unang tingin
nagkukubli na kasama
ang maskarang
mukha mo.
**para sa mga kababaihang biktima ng mapnghusgang mga mat...
Lors
4:04 AM
i have no idea what time it is pro im not sleepy. which is weird. i haven't slept all day.
btw, i got my tooth extracted earlier today...i mean, yesterday n pla...gawd what time is it naba???
anyways ive been chatting with mama gen and matt for how many hrs na...4 ata and mam gen just left so its only matt and i now...we're exchanging pix and stuff....hey man, 5-4 ang score s pool! hehe...we've...
Mar 22, 2005
sudden addiction to dragons
Lors
10:13 AM
i was a serious fan of HP way way back. well, i mean, don't get me wrong, i still am in love with that half-Muggle, half-wizard doer of all goods and archnemesis of you-know-who. it's just that i wasn't so absorbed in it like i was before. anyways, as i was going through some of the clutter i brought home from baguio, i came upon this printed copy of "Drakonidae by Rhyssen." it was one of the very...
Mar 21, 2005
settling
Lors
10:36 PM
"is it only skin i touch
when i reach for you?
oh, the leaves they fall,
they go so far sometimes.
do i blame the wind
or the tree for letting you go,
or do i wave goodbye,settling?"
you know what, ai is right. my poems are so lonely. and to be frank, when i read them, i can't seem to feel any emotion flowing from them, just like what i expected them to possess. it's like, they're so void of...
yadnom
Lors
5:28 PM
untalkative bunny. that's so raven. e-mail. junk mail. snail mail. unmade bed. aching head. dvd's. vcd's. ED's. book. nook. crook. shnook. pillow. hollow. narrow. marrow? speaker. sneaker. jeans, a pair? how to deal. sugar free. jam88.3. dust. must. rust. lust? seventeen. meg. candy. mandy? mop. tap. tube top. lights. heights. fright. dashboard. blackboard. web. lead. bed. chocolate, black. nothing...
Mar 20, 2005
yadnus
Lors
7:40 PM
andito pa rin ako, nag-aantay sa mga lumipas na panahon. hindi na ata ako muli pang makakabangon mula sa mga alaalang dinulot mo. kaya kong magpakamanhid, itago ang tunay na nararamdaman...ang sakit sa tuwing makikita kang kasama sya. oo, nasasaktan ako. alam kong hindi ito tama, alam kong hindi ito dapat pero wla akong magawa kundi ang hayaan ang sariling magpakalunod sa pag-ibig na hinding hindi...
Mar 18, 2005
last working day of the week...
Lors
7:04 PM
unfortunately for some (like my mom), they have to work their butts for 7 days a week. such a hassle. but hey, if the pay is good, why argue?
~
some updates:
i am addicted to pristontale. you know, that online game? aargh...but i can't get past level 8...hehe...haven't been able to get out of the house for the past couple of days. anyways, after this, i wear i won't get off of my seat until i've...
Mar 7, 2005
"...cradle me to you."
Lors
1:58 PM
blog blog blog...
eto ang gawain pag walang magawa. ang mag-post ng mag-post at mangarap na sana mabasa ng taong pinaglaanan mo ng oras kakaisip ang post mo, kahit na alam mo na kahit pa anong gawin mo eh di ka na muli pang babalikan ng taong pinagaalayan mo ng mga salitang paulit-ulit mong isinusulat at sinasabi sa mga kaibigang pagod na sa kakarinig sa mga hinanakit mo.
pero teka lang, tama ba...
nagagalit ako sayo.
Lors
7:34 AM
potah...grr...ang init ng ulo ko...nagagagalit ako ng sobra sobra sobra...potah talaga...tangina!!!!!!!!!!naiinis ako...naiiyak na ko sa galit...nkkbwisit ng sobra tangina bakit may mga taong ganon?! potah talaga...aarrrgh!!!!!!!!!! nkkinis!!! potah bwisit....tangina naiinis ako bwisit xa bwisit...tangina bakit kasi...naman!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aaargh!!!!!!potah tangina bwisit aaammmfff!!!!!!!!!!!!yosi...
Mar 6, 2005
yadnus
Lors
2:14 PM
there was nothing left to do but stare.just stare.
i couldn't come any close.
i SHOULDN"T come any close.
the warmth might just end up burning me.
my eyes are already hurt by just staring at it.
but if only i could...
just for a minute.
a second, even.
my insides are battling it out.
torned heart screams a moment's warmth
while
that gray material stuck to my head wars not to.
i have no idea...
Mar 5, 2005
accidents happen.
Lors
11:35 PM
nakakainis..bkt ganun??eh im trying my very best na nga na mklimot nd all tpos..the whole world just conspires to make me feel miserable...nakakainis...
wel at least i am sort-of happy right now...xempre, i have my meme...plus the wishful thinking...anticipation ng pagpunta ko ulit ng baguio...waah..i miss my old pals...
damn it! i can't think straight...do you think im a schizophrenic?yes,...
yesterday thoughts
Lors
5:48 PM
tonight, you have no idea how i try to unpack this feelings of regret i carry within me.
~
walang katumbas na sakit.
as the sky continues to cry, i curl up on my bed and as if slowly die. life has been taken out of me, i wasn't with the person i longed to be.
gulong gulo na ako.
i haven't the slightest idea what my first step is gonna be. i feel as if the whole world's turned its back on me and...
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