Nov 25, 2006

coversations of a gay lizard-rat and a humaniod: the prologue

humanoid: its weird. what's weird? weird is ok. abnormal is not.
gay lizard-rat: abnormal is ok. it's the society that bugs all off.
h: welcome the anti-social. ... there should never be such a term.
glr: what term?
h: anti-social.
grl: yep, i guess. i mean, an anti-social has her (or his) set of circle.
h: right. they've got their own society of anti-socials, them being termed as such by those part of the other society.
glr: exactly.

Nov 21, 2006

sigh. whine.

ok. so i was making this testimonial for matt and im stuck. i said id try to put into words how much he means to me and its taking me such a long time staring at the computer screen typing nothing. (when we say put into words, it means id have to write him a poem or any lyrical something) and i now believe that i do suck at this. whatever happened?!

sigh. oh my. now i am again starting my paragraphs with sighs. oh my.

usually, when i start with sighs, i just have no other words to fill up the space with. and i don't want that. i miss having to write about everything and now being ridiculed for it. i mean, nobody's making fun of me but whatever. i know i cant write half as much as i can back then. and i don't want that. ok. im being bitter already. pang bang wham!

...

ok. i just finished my testimonial for him. yay. oh my. its already 3am and i still have to go to work. damn. i really have to have a laptop now. its really necessary for me. well, just a credit card and six more paydays to go.

Oct 3, 2006

lazy cheerers, firm believers

brief updates:

1. ok. so i know i just had my template changed but i am planning to have it changed once again. call me a discontented frustrated blog-minder, i just have to look for the perfect template to actually have a bit more enthusiasm in wanting to open my blog and write. because when i see my blog so bland, i feel like i am not having my share with the template. i just want a template that would reveal a lot about me, and last, hopefully.

2. before i forget, im doing this post, typing it, at our computer. yay! we finally have the internet connection all spelled out. double yay! and matt gave me a net card. triple yay!

3. my shift is to start in about two hours and i still haven't gotten any sleep. i was awake at around 7.30 am yesterday, having only around 9 hours of sleep since we had a birthday celebration last sunday for everyone in my dad's side of the family who's celebrated their birthday for the month of september plus my little cousin who celebrated her birthday on the exact date.

4. speaking of birthdays, i had mine last sept.30 and it was so-so. well, except for the fact that i was celebrating it (more like watching theday pass by it) together with the remains of the typhoon 'milenyo'. one good thing about it, though , is opening my eyes at the sight of matt greeting me at 1.00 am that day. he slept here and we were lounging at the sofa so when i woke up, he was the first to greet me that day. it was kilig, bliss and all other happy cheery words. one bad thing though was that i went back to sleep after. teehee.

5. another sad fact about my birthday was that it was the game two of the uaap senior men's basketball championship and the ateneo lost, having another game three the following monday (today, earlier).

6. and speaking of the game, we watched earlier, and the ateneo lost. it was a good game although there were really parts wherein wrong calls were made and a big disrespect from the players of the opposing team happened. i even ended up missing my english class (the class wherein one more absence from me means immediate drop), taking the pressure of having to fake a medical certicate bearing my name and the words UTI with it. anyways, all in all it was a good game. although i didn't really 'see' the action for the last quarter and the overtime since i was clutching my both hands in prayer and just had my head bowed down. i admit it, i cried at the end of it, because it was just two points. but i was cheering my heart out still for the three seniors, doug, macky and jc. it was really macky's statement game, scoring 28 points, proving he has what it takes to go pro. and for jc, it was really all heart. he was the most (dare i say) devastated. but we are so proud. ateneo's sixth man may not always seem to be the sixth man because of being 'lazy cheeres'(-from the guy sitting next to me, a frustrated blue babble wanna-be, i guess. but he was a good guy) although you have to agree ateneans are firm believers. we believe. we believe all heart in the ateneo way. and that, i guess is what sets us apart. because, 'win or lose, it's the school we CHOOSE.'

7. also, i gave my supervisor a couple or so of poems because he has this band who is in need of new songs and just last sunday, he was actually singing one of my poems. again, i have these feelings of kilig and bliss overwhelming me. i didn't realize how satisfying is it having your poem be turned into a song. wow.

8. i love matt. i guess i don't have to write much about him anymore. i believe everyone who knows me already knows him and vice versa. i love you my baby starboy blue. (no matter how cheesy mushy and totally gushing-highschooler that sounds.)

whoa. 8 updates. i love having an internet connection at home. that sounds rural-ish but whatever. i believe we had such a bad experience with connecting to the internet so my dad just had that taken all off and that's that. i guess he came to his senses when his girls robbed him of money for internet cafes. harhar.


"we sing our battle song:
WIN or LOSE it's the school we CHOOSE.

Mary for you, for your white and blue
We pray you keep us Mary
Constantly true.
We pray you keep us Mary
Faithful to you."
-we BELIEVE.

Sep 25, 2006

ok so anyways, i just finished changing my template and im supposed to bless it with a new post (something worth reading, that is) but i really have to go because i still need to take a rest before my shift starts at 3am and my baby mattie is already so tired i have to have him home at least before 7.30.

time check: 7.10. oh my. i really have to let this go.

(btw, i have to check this skin still, because the titles for each entry aren't displayed.)

Aug 13, 2006

im tired. and im sick.

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1. sigh.

it was a long weekend for us guys at work but i really feel i haven't gotten much rest lately. you see, even when i do know i'm not supposed to go to work the next day, when i sleep at night i still wake up at around 12.30 and when i get back to sleep i end up waking again by 4am. great, right? then i'm up by 6.

i'm not complaining about all this, don't get me wrong. this point, space, place in time has got to be one of the highlights of my life, owe to the fact that i'm trying my very best struggling everything and i just...i'm loving the thought that just by waiting some more, i can finally move into a new apartment and spend the days with my mattie.

2. sigh.

i'm sick. i've got this bad feeling of pain all over my body and i have the colds so most probably i can't quite hear well and smell as well. haha. i just remembered that the last post i made was about my being sick and here i am again, talking about sickness. you don't think my body has lost all its immunity, its defense against the common ailments, do you? hmm..

3. sigh.

i still have a lot of catching up to do with reagrds to my acads. there's that paper in bc and that research paper in en. for the research paper in bc, i believe really that that is my fault why i still haven't got it done. but with en, the thing is, im bored with the class that's why i don't have the energy to actually want to do good in it. imagine, "College Reading and Writing" and what lessons are we getting? Basic Reading and Writing? these are the times i wish i haven't screwed up in up.

4. sigh.

work work work. now im feeling the pressure of having to actually hit goal everyday and make sales. i was transferred in another campaign, asp, and it's the priority campaign and all of us are being tested. and im really trying my best. i believe that if i really focus hard and long enough, i'd get the hang of it. i just have to brush that pressure off.

5. sigh.

i feel like it's been weeks ago since matt and i were able to attend and actually keep our heads up in mass. because one of us usually falls asleep and there. it's really embarassing but we can't help it at times, sorry.

6. sigh.

...

i miss my mattie.

now im really getting tired. i'll try to post by next week. promise...i'll try.
love you, baby.