Jan 28, 2005

have you ever been so down?

have you ever felt as if the word "happiness" and all synonymous to it has been gone caput?

have you ever felt so alone?


damn me and my goddamn issues. as can be seen, im an expert at handling emotions. you know, keeping them out of everybody's sight. pulling a funny face even though you know you're breaking down deep inside?

ive got to stop this game ive for so long been playing. but i can't find the courage to do so. i feel like i'm such a fool. not the funny kind of fool though, more of the physically hurt, emotionally battered kind of fool.