have you ever been so down?



have you ever felt as if the word "happiness" and all synonymous to it has been gone caput?



have you ever felt so alone?





*sigh*





damn me and my goddamn issues. as can be seen, im an expert at handling emotions. you know, keeping them out of everybody's sight. pulling a funny face even though you know you're breaking down deep inside?



ive got to stop this game ive for so long been playing. but i can't find the courage to do so. i feel like i'm such a fool. not the funny kind of fool though, more of the physically hurt, emotionally battered kind of fool.