still.

it's still here. yes, you are. and i did try to push all of it away. i really did, and i am still trying. 
it's just hard drowning in tears  you know you didn't want to shed. but they fell anyway, no matter how many times you try to force them back in, they would always find their way out.
it's never been the same. i want to say i'm doing just fine. i want to know i am doing just fine.
it's  hard to stay and see you still. memories i didn't know i could keep come rushing in.


i just want to say goodbye and really mean it.
but i don't think i can, as of yet.