yesterday thoughts

tonight, you have no idea how i try to unpack this feelings of regret i carry within me.

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walang katumbas na sakit.
as the sky continues to cry, i curl up on my bed and as if slowly die. life has been taken out of me, i wasn't with the person i longed to be.



gulong gulo na ako.
i haven't the slightest idea what my first step is gonna be. i feel as if the whole world's turned its back on me and every step i make takes me closer to my end.



wala na kong buhay.
no matter what i do it all comes back to you. ive tried my best but to no good. i guess im stuck with you. thoughts of you, that is.

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masakit magmahal ng taong pag-aari na ng iba. masakit isipin na iba ang kapiling nya. masakit sa alaala ang mga pinagsamahan nyong dalawa. masakit na makitang ang pangarap mong buhay na kapiling siya ay natupad sa iba.



masakit magmahal. lalo pa kung di naman ikaw ang laman ng puso niya. mahirap ang umasa kasi alam mo namang wala ka ring mapapala. ang pag-ibig na inilaan mo sa kanya ay katumbas ng pag-ibig na inilaan na niya sa iba.

masakit, sobra. hindi mo ba ito nadarama? siguro nga hinde, kasi nakikita ko namang masaya ka sa piling nya. pero ako, kahit ba minsan minahal mo? kahit ba minsan nagkaroon ng pagkakataong higit pa sa kaibigan ang tingin mo?



masakit na amining nasasaktan pa ako.

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yesterday's girl

can we go back to the days we said we'd never say goodbye?the days we run around the fields hand in hand...the days we never really cared much about those that revolve around the two of us... US. it hurts to hear those words now. because now, there isn't any us nor we... what's left is only you and me... two different people trying to find their way back to each other... well, at least one of them is.



ive held on to this and il never give it up.