Dec 5, 2008

decode.

Lors    9:20 AM   
How can I decide what's right
When you're clouding up my mind?
I can't win your losing fight
All the time.

Not gonna ever own what's mine
When you're always taking sides?
But you won't take away my pride.
No, not this time.
Not this time.

How did we get here?
When I used to know you so well.
But how did we get here?
Well, I think I know.

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And it's hanging on your tongue.
Just boiling in my blood.
But you think that I can't see
What kind of man that you are,
If you're a man at all.
Well, I will figure this one out
On my own.
(I'm screaming, "I love you so.")
On my own.
(My thoughts you can't decode)

How did we get here?
When I used to know you so well, yeah.
But how did we get here?
Well, I think I know.

Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves.
Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves.

How did we get here?
When I used to know you so well, yeah, yeah.
How did we get here?
Well, I used to know you so well.
I think I know.
I think I know.

There is something I see in you.
It might kill me.
I want it to be true.

Nov 23, 2008

ouch.

Lors    6:09 PM   


"The indispensable first step to getting the things you want out of life is this:
Decide what you want."



- Ben Stein

Sep 18, 2008

margaret cho.

Lors    10:51 AM   
Margaret Cho: And I went through this whole thing, you know. I was like: Am I gay? Am I straight? And I realized I'm just slutty.






*balang araw ramille magkikita din tayo at nanakawin ko lahat ng libro mo hahaha!miss you dear.

Aug 3, 2008

sheesh. then yay!

Lors    6:38 PM   
i m bummed.

i ve recently been filling my posts with snappy scribbles because i can t seem to find the time to stay longer than 5 minutes at the "compose blog entry" page.

and when i finally feel free to do so,
i m already tired.

how can i be tired? ooh.just the mere thought of it tires me.

shoosh shoosh.

btw. matt and i watched the game today. go ateneo. :)
6-1
solo lead.
champions.
OBF!


Aug 2, 2008

gossip girl love

Lors    4:32 PM   
"It's often said that,

no matter the truth, people see what they want to see.

Some people might take a step back and find out
they were looking at
the same big picture all along.

Some people might see that their lies have almost caught up to them."

Jul 27, 2008

ADMU won!

Lors    12:19 PM   
5 - 0

against NU.
whew.
straight on.

five and o.



*daddy marvin. sweep. swoosh swoosh.

Jul 26, 2008

canvass

Lors    6:47 PM   
i m clouded.
i suddenly felt so down.
what do i have, anyway?
anything worth remembering,
that is.

my words are getting empty
empty
and white
pages of blank.

can i simply be your star?
can i just wait until the morning sky?

is there anything you need of me,
is there nothing else for me to be?

Jul 8, 2008

ADMU won!

Lors    9:04 AM   
*yes. this is a late post. i was supposed to post this yesterday but then matt and i got into a fight and i ended up sulking in his bedroom and instantly fell asleep.*

yes. the blue eagles won.woohoo!

before going to the game, i lost my wallet. it contains my baby's picture, me matt and eish's picture, my school id, my philhealth id (which is my only government issued id!), the form for me to get my honorable dismissal, the form thingie for me to get my phone back and Php1200. oops, did imention my payroll ATM was in there as well? grr..as i 've said.the person who took it will be having kulugo for the rest of his or her life.

so anyway, i was in such a bad mood the whole day.that is, until after the players of the first game, UP-NU started their warmups on the court. i suddenly felt goosebumps as i watched them do their practice layups and freethrows. and as the game started, all feelings of anger and frustration suddenly dissipated. (although trust me on the kulugo thingie.) this was live college basketball. and this always gives me one of the biggest highs eveeeer.

so anyway, prior to the Blue Eagles winning, i had other reason to celebrate as well. UP won! woohoo! that s my school baby (one of many)! hahaha. matt even nudged me to stand up during the singing of the school hymn and yeah i did. :)

but of course, to the main event....which took waaaaaay too long to start. first up was the awarding of manny pacquiao. yes. he was there. in the flesh. and he was even given a up centennial jacket. and cap. and he looked like a boyscout. cubscout pede? but matt says he looked more like those guys from the nba draft. since they get team jackets and caps as well. so after a little speech and good luck wishes (to both teams) he left and went backstage (or so i thought).

and after LOUD cheers and whistles for the game to start, tantananan! agent zero is in the house!hahaha! we could not believe it. we thought he was not going to watch the game anymore since he had such a tight schedule (i know, mat checked). but he was there. though he wasn t given much attention kasi nike sponsored this season's uaap and arenas is of adidas sponsorship (did that just sound wrong?hmm..parang scholarship lang.hahaha!)

and so after all the picture taking, we finally wanted to get it all started. then pacquiao ent in again. so basically, we had to wait until everybody gets seated to start the game. and boy, what a way to start the game. chris tiu nailing in 2 free throws before the jump ball. true. there was a technical foul called on the la salle bench as we saw la salle s brother oca exchange not so friendly remarks. so there. 2-0 for ateneo.

and it kicked them off to owning the 1st quarter, with la salle trailing just close behind. and close behind it was. la salle finished off 5 points ahead in the 2nd quarter, sending the dlsu cheering squad performing first with their signature (na medyo laos na aminin natin) arrow into A formation. then came the blue babble forming 1 5 0 which indicated ateneo's sesquicentennial celebration.

*this was the part where i walked out and sulked in his bedroom.*

so anyways, we still got hyped even though we were 5 points behind. and yes, we had the right to get hyped as we were able to make habol in the 3rd quarter, having 1point (tama ba?or pantay to?) ahead the archers. and so, lo and behold..the 4th quarter. sakit sa puso pramis. hahahahaha! if not for the freethrows, if not for the layups..shoosh. woohoo. 79-73. sarap. next time ulit!

*i read this somewhere: "si rabeh panalo..then patalo...then panalo ulit". apir. hahaha.si tiu din pasuspense 2 lang sa 3 freethrows ang pinasok..hahahaha. plus, i love the eagles' line up nung 4th.panalo un. :)

*daddy marvin, sweep sweep sweep..makikipagbet ako next time hahahaha!

Jul 1, 2008

uuuy....

Lors    1:07 PM   
You Are Ready to Get Married
You've done more than dream about the dress and the honeymoon
In fact, you spend a good deal of your time thinking about what makes a relationship work
And from your answers, it looks like you have the skills to say "I Do" and mean it
You've dated enough, learned your fair share, and you're ready to settle down.

let s go na!!

Lors    1:07 PM   
Your Travel Personality Is: The Sophisticate
You're well educated and cultured, and the places you travel to reflect that.
You appreciate the best art, food, architecture, and local flavor.
A true traveler, you are destined to be multi-lingual and very worldly.

shush

Lors    1:06 PM   
Your Intrapersonal Intelligence Score: 94%
Your Intrapersonal Intelligence is Very High

You've spent a lot of time introspecting, and it's really paid off.
You are comfortable with who you are, and you have a life philosophy that you are happy to live by.
And you're always re-evaluating what you believe. Because you learn something new about yourself each day!

uh hmm.

Lors    12:57 PM   
Your Career Personality: Original, Devoted, and Service Oriented
Your Ideal Careers:

Art director
Book editor
College professor
Composer
Film director
Graphic designer
Novelist
Stage actor
Psychiatrist
Writer

tan tatan tatan!

Lors    12:25 PM   
Your Dream Engagement Ring Has a Pear Diamond!
You're personal style is a mix of classic and contemporary, reseved and outgoing.
A pear diamond matches your charming personality - and is perfect to show off.
You've also got an elegant side, which is complemented a tear dropped shaped pear.
It's the perfect mix of Liz Taylor and Jessica Simpson - both wearers of this ring!

maaasik na naman ako sa blogthings.lagot.

Lors    12:14 PM   
You Are 85% Real
There's hardly a person on this earth more real than you are.
You have no problem showing people who you are, flaws and all.
For you, there couldn't be any other way. Because it's way too stressful to live an inauthentic life.
You're very comfortable with yourself. And because of this, you're able to live an exciting, interesting, and challenging life.

blogthings

Lors    12:04 PM   



You Are 85% Real



There's hardly a person on this earth more real than you are.

You have no problem showing people who you are, flaws and all.

For you, there couldn't be any other way. Because it's way too stressful to live an inauthentic life.

You're very comfortable with yourself. And because of this, you're able to live an exciting, interesting, and challenging life.

Mar 4, 2008

mango shakes under the hot summer sun.

Lors    6:33 AM   
i just changed my multiply look. and i love it. it s the start of the summer and i love summer! i m frequently coled so the heat is a welcome treat. i wish we could go to bora his summer. boyfriend says by may i guess. after eish s christening but i do hope we can go as a whole, me eish and matt. too bad eish is such a cute baby still and not a very kulit toddler already. i can t wait. it s summer all over again! yay!

of course we ll be going back to puerto plus all those annual outings we have on daddy s side of the family. still, it s different when you go to the beach with just your special one in tow. *kilig* all those romantic moments and all those kulitan stuff. you are far away from home and from work and from all the other city distractions. sheesh. let s go packing! sigh.

i want to go to the beach. i want to go to the beach. i want to go to the beach. i want i want i want.
*whining until someone picks me up and shoulders all my expenses to go to the beach. :)

i am

Lors    6:26 AM   
i m freaking out, i m scared, i m excited, i m bland. no. that can t be. i m sweet. i m sugary sweet. i m syrupy sweet. i m red. i m blue. i m orange. i m yellow. i m green. i m purple. i m pink. i m pink. i m pink. i m inked. i m writ. i m read. i m tossed. i m fed. i mlate. oh goodness. i m late!

Jan 12, 2008

sod off.

Lors    11:30 PM   
i am so pissed off. yeah i do get home at an ungodly hour because i have work. but to go home at such an hour (and not even actually going home just lainly leaving the place you were at) with your 2 month old daughter at your house waiting for you to come home?! your house even! i am so pissed off. i could just kill someone right now. the nerve! what kind of a parent would do that? stupid useless gits i suppose. i am so angry i could definitely burst. that s why i had to write this down. i don t know what id do if i didn t blog about this. imagine! imagine!

oh my god. i am so tired. i'm sick because of the rain yesterday MORNING and now this. sarap diba? kamusta naman. god, what do you say to those kind of people? if you becomemabait and malambing and understanding they don t have it in themselves to say sorry thinking eveything s okay naman why say sorry pa. and if you give them the cold shoulder they ll be the ones angry pa, asking you what s wrong making you kulet then when you tell them , they will get a lot angrier pa and won t say sorry pa after the conversation. tapos when you approach them na galit (because that s how you feel eh you re mad na nga diba) they ll counter you with a series of angry outbursts as well. hay sarap. imagine! imagine!

sidedish. i just love saying the word imagine. obviously.

back to my rant. grrr. i am so angry. i m not even hungry anymore. i didn t have much for lunch at work and was hoping to get eat at home but this came first so good luck with my appetite. my eating hours are already very abnormal and when i get hungry pa this is what happens. shoot.

just don t tell me what to do when it comes to loving you.

Lors    12:27 AM   
as with previous posts, i just came home from work. and the nature of my job is really boring but the conversations are funny so that makes up for it.anyway, yes. i do have work now. wait, have i just mentioned that in one of my posts?lemme see, hmmm...oh wait well no, i haven't so there. and we finally found a yaya for baby which a good thing but the bad thing is the yaya would just like to stay at their (matt's) house so i don t get to spend as much of my time with baby but i do get to see her everyday as much as i want of course. but then i still can t do that since my body needs rest and that s the whole point of us having a yaya.

anyway, one thing i don t like about my work is of course the shifting schedule. super mega duper shift! i even get 2 shifts in one day. san ka pa so kamusta ang bugbog na katawan. also, with that shift in sked i don t get to see more of baby when she s awake and being her kulit self because our waking times do match so when i m at work that s when she s super awake and when i m about to sleep she s far ahead of me on that one and all i can do is basically lie beside her and watch her and hear her heavy breathing. yep heavy breathing - she s having a hard time because she has na naman sipon plus she also has a bit of cough so i m sad i can t be there for her all the time but i have to work and that s what buys her milk and diapers and vaccine fees and doctor fees and everything else she would be needing. except of course, motherly affection but she still doesn t understand that yet so let s leave it at that muna.

but there are of course also perks in my current job which is the 2 day off (days of which are totally unpredictable) and the high salary, which is double my previous income. an offer too good to resist so i toook bait. so see, that s what pays everything mostly, and i just bought me and matt new eyeglasses since nag zoom pataas ang aming mga grado sa mata kamusta naman un diba!

speaking of matt, i had a crazy post partum depression attack last wednesday and i ahd cried myself more than 2 hours, hicucupping more than 30 minutes and super hikbi sobra. that was how it felt pala. i don t want that na. i promise. it s the worse kind of feeling. ultimate depression that makes you want to just die and i was even banging my head on the walls and punching myself and trying hard to kick myself (which is by far the hardest thing i ever attempted to do). i wish not a lot of people experience that. especially new moms. it s nerve racking. it made me look like a stupid brat. it made me look like a crazy woman. it made me feel like a crazy woman.

at work, the only thing we re allowed to bring on the floor are our wallets and books or any reading material. we are not allowed our phones (which is nakakatakas naman talaga ever) and pens. that s why i am yet again thrown into the realms of literacy confinement. i get to read but not to write. what good is that? well, there is good in it. i just feel like i ve missed my pen so much and i haven t again for the nth time made anything wrote anything. not a damn thing. just this rant. this and only this. sad. but who knows, maybe i ll be able to make more of this since the network connection at home just got up again. yay.

time check 5.24 i have to get off now i need to freshen up before taking matt to school. this is the only time kasi we get to meetthis day so make the most out of that 1 hour. paganda muna. as if i need it di ba!haha! if you d just look at me now. conceited! hahaha ganyan talaga nagagawa ng pagiging new mommy feeling pinakamaganda sa buong universe. :)


"i will live and die for you
give everything you want me to
just don t ever try to tell me what to do
when it comes to loving you..."





Jan 11, 2008

bored from work part 3

Lors    11:56 PM   
What Keisha Janeen Ordoño Aquino Means
You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip.People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.People see you as a complete enigma, and only you truly understand who you are.You spend most of your time introspecting and seeking truth.You're a very interesting person... but not many people know you enough to realize it.You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

bored from work

Lors    11:53 PM   
What Mary Loreneen Elardo Ordoño Means
You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

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